Rue

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  • Mieko

    Happiness can be defined in all kinds of ways, but human beings, consciously or unconsciously, are always pulling for their own version of happiness. Even people who want to die see death as a kind of solace, and view ending their lives as the only way to make it there. Happiness is the base unit of consciousness, our single greatest motivator. Saying “I just want to be happy” trumps any other explanation.

  • Hello From the Other Side

    Hello Lavenders,

    Happy Thursday and Happy New Year.

    I’m sorry for not uploading yesterday—it’s my fault for missing the first post of the year. I hope to become more punctual as the year progresses. To explain a little, I’ve been very sick. I thought a cosy day in my blanket fort would help me recover, but instead it got worse. I’m feeling a little better now, though I can’t say I’m fully recovered yet. Starting the year with an illness isn’t ideal, but maybe it means I’ll have better health in the months ahead—that’s my hope, at least.

    In my last blog, I mentioned starting Impossible Creatures. Although being unwell has limited my progress, I managed to read a bit today. The book’s reputation for exquisite writing is well-deserved—each sentence is written with such care that it’s genuinely mesmerising. I’m still far from finishing, so it may be too early to judge, but so far, it’s shaping up to be a book worth recommending. Once I’ve finished it, I’ll share my final thoughts.

    But let’s put my excitement about the book aside for now—today, I want to talk about my New Year’s resolutions for 2025.

    As I mentioned in my last blog, 2024 was such a whirlwind year, and I believe 2025 to be no different.To better prepare, I’ve made a few promises to myself:

    1. Pursuing my dream
      I’ve been wanting to talk about this, but I hesitate to get too personal (though I suppose I already have). Like many college freshmen, I’ve struggled with figuring out what I want from life and where I should go. Lately, though, a dream has started to take shape, and I can feel its pull. The only problem is, I’ve been too afraid to take the first step. Yet, over winter break, I realised that fear doesn’t go away on its own. Life moves forward whether we’re ready or not, and I don’t want to stand still any longer.
    2. Documenting my life
      This blog is part of it, but I also want to make journaling a regular habit. I know it’s a common resolution—and one that’s easy to abandon. Maybe I’ll struggle too. But these years, my time in college and early adulthood, won’t come around again. Every moment matters, even the small ones. I want to take more photos, write more journals, and share my emotions more. So when the present becomes the past, and memories begin to fade, I’ll have something to look back on—something that reminds me of who I was and what these moments meant. Too often, I hold my thoughts back, afraid of saying the wrong thing or stumbling over my words. This year, I want to let go of that fear and let my voice be heard.
    3. Watching more films
      There was a time when I was a film buff and watched many movies, but recently I’ve been consumed by reading. I’d like to return to my love of films. When I first arrived here, I was amazed by the sheer number of English books compared to what was available back home, so I read voraciously, as if making up for lost time. But now I want to find balance and enjoy both books and films.
    4. Letting go and trusting God
      I’ve always worried too much, trying to control everything as if the weight of the world rests on me alone. This year, I want to trust God more. To let go of what I can’t carry and give it to Him.

    I hope 2025 is a year full of hope and love for all of you.

    Thank you for stopping by my little lavender field.

    God bless and goodbye!

    ~Rue