Tag: family

Merry Christmas, Lavenders! (Lavender is my favourite flower, so I thought it would be nice to call my internet friends by that name. Let me know what you think!)

How was your day? Mine felt warm. This morning, I went to church. We praised the Lord, shared gifts, and enjoyed delicious food (though I didn’t get a gift—those were mostly for the younger kids. I guess I’m not a kid anymore, haha). Other than the church event, my day was quiet. After I came back, I tried to watch a film but didn’t finish it. Instead, I ended up daydreaming. I should tell you—I love daydreaming. It’s my favourite hobby. Some might find it odd, but I enjoy getting lost in my thoughts, staring out the window and letting my mind wander.

As a child, I spent a lot of time feeling alone. I didn’t have many friends or family around (it was always just me and my dad), so I stayed inside my head. It felt safer that way. When the world outside felt distant, my imagination became the place I could go to feel less lonely. Now, at 19, I still go back to that place. It’s changed a little, but the feeling is the same. It’s where I go when life feels heavy or when I need to catch my breath. You might wonder what I daydreamed about today. But I think we’re not quite close enough for me to share that yet. Maybe next time, haha. I’m being mysterious, aren’t I?

One thing I feel a little sad about is not having a Christmas cake this year (and yes, my sweet tooth is feeling the loss). But then I remind myself—there are many people out there who don’t even have a warm meal, so I won’t complain. I do wish I could have spent today at home with my dad, but being in college, far from home in another country, makes that difficult. I suppose this is part of growing up.

After dinner, I went for a walk around the neighbourhood. I wanted to see the Christmas decorations, to decide which house was the best. But as I walked, I realised it wasn’t about choosing. Every house sparkled in its own way, each one lit with care and love. The lights shimmered in the dark, like little whispers of hope. I looked up at the sky and thought—I hope God sees this. I hope, from heaven, it makes His heart sparkle the way it makes ours.

Today we celebrate His birth, and I’m reminded of the hope and love He brings into the world. No matter how lost I feel or how uncertain life becomes, knowing He is with me makes everything feel a little lighter.

There’s a lot on my mind that I’d love to share. But I’ll keep it short for now because if I say too much today, what will I have to say tomorrow? Haha.

As a poor college student, I have nothing else to give for Christmas, but I do have a song recommendation: I’m With You by Trent Reznor & Atticus Ross. I hope you like it. If you do, then you’re my buddy now—and that makes me happy!

Have a cosy time with the rest of your holidays~

God bless and goodbye!

~Rue